Double trouble!!!

So, I went to the doctor last Monday for my 10 week checkup...doc couldn't find the heartbeat so she suggested an ultrasound.  Dr. Mattson said she'd see me back in her office after.  The ultrasound tech found the heartbeat and then proceeded to ask me if I was on fertility.  Thinking nothing of it, I replied no thinking of it as a routine question.  When the tech told me to empty my bladder and that she was going to do an internal ultrasound I was a bit alarmed.  She said she and the doc would be back in a minute.  15 minutes that felt like an hour later, the two of them came in and pulled up the baby on the screen.  The tech said to the doc, "Here's that membrane I was talking about".  Of course, I panicked and started thinking of the worst...tumor, cyst, etc... Finally I said, "What are you guys talking about!?!" Dr. Mattson tapped me on the leg and said..."Looks like there's going to be two!"  Oh my gosh was I surprised.  I joked with Pete the night before "what would you do if they found twins?...haha".  So of course, when I called to tell him, he didn't believe me.  I specifically asked the tech to label both babies so I would have proof on the picture.  The babies measured earlier than we had originally thought...baby 1 measured  7 weeks with a heartbeat of 126 and baby 2 measured 7 weeks 1 day with a heartbeat of 149.  My dad was a fraternal twin and I am named after her (sadly, Becky Jo died when she was 3 due to a brain tumor).  We feel so incredibly blessed! 

The first trimester symptoms have been giving me a run for my money, but I am more than happy to endure them.  I'm more tired than I have ever been in my entire life...I get up several times a night to pee andI'm constantly nauseous and hardly ever hungry (which is not like me).  When I am hungry, all I want is mashed potatoes, popsicles, ice cream and milkshakes.  Occasionally I want chili, a hamburger or hotdog...but only sometimes, other times the thought of them makes me sick.  When I first found out I was pregnant on my own, I stocked up at Whole Foods on lots of healthy options.  That was before nothing sounded good to me.  I wish healthier food sounded better to me, but for now I'm just focusing on getting anything in my belly!  Honestly, the thought of any other vegetables other than classic iceberg lettuce with ranch makes me gag.  Which bums me out because usually I love vegetables!  I never thought that the rumors about pregnancy food cravings/aversions were actually real...but now I am a firm believer and am very curious as to why I crave certain things and am repulsed by others. 

Although I've been gagging constantly, I never thought I would actually throw up (I kind of thought that was just a pregnancy myth) but when I threw up on myself out of the blue when I was getting ready for work I was stunned! Then later that night I got out of bed and started puking again (I really regretted having a hot dog a few hours earlier)!  And the next morning at work where I showed up pale faced and shaking, I wasn't too surprised when I puked up my breakfast in the public restroom.  How embarassing...there were people in there and by the end of my episode I had mascara running down my cheeks. 

Overall, I'm feeling pretty good and am praising the Lord for his great gift to us.  Being pregnant has really reconnected me with my faith.  So often I worry and want to know the answer to everything...this is a situation where I've learned I have to trust that God is in control and all I can do is pray.  Otherwise, I end up driving myself crazy worrying about every little thing.  I'm thankful that this pregnancy has helped me to realize this.  A sweet coworker showed me this wonderful Catholic prayer booklet she constantly uses called "The Mother's Manual".  I went and picked one up at a Catholic bookstore and am using it constantly.  There are a lot of prayers for expectant mothers and I'm so thankful she showed me this great resource. 

I've got my 10 week check up in a little over a week...praying for the health of the precious angels!